Fridays Readers Story

Tasha + Kay said...

Hello..
We Are Natasha + Kayleigh
We Have Both Had Very Bad Life Experiences And People Seam To Class Us As Emos..Like People Who Slit Their Wrists And Consantly Go On About How Hard Life Is Which Is Total Shit!

Natasha..
1.When I First Moved House I Started To Get Abused By A Family Member.
I Never Told My Parents Because I Felt Lonly, Guilty + Used.
But Thats Life.

2.The Reason Being That I Couldnt Tell My Parents Is Because When Thought The Time Was Right It Was Really The Worst Time Of All.
My Mum Had Cancer And On Her Recovery The Disk In Bottom Of Her Back Slipped.
If You Are A Doctor You Will Know How Bad It Is.
She Was On Omophine(Substitute To Heroine) Every 4 Hours Which Made Her Very Sleepy + Even More Ill.

3.It Was Bad Enough Knowing That My Farther Cheated On My Mum A Number Of Times And Gave Her A STD.
But Knowing That The Corse Of My Mums Back Was Because He Beat Her All The Time Made Me Feel Down.
But Then I Accidently Found Out That Before My Mother Was Pregnant With Me My Farther Cheated On Her So She Cheated On Him Back, Which Ment That The Person I Used To Call Farther Was Probly Not Even My Real Dad.

4.Brothers + Sisters.
My Little Brother Gets Bullyed At School Alot.
My Oldest Sister Bullys Me + Gets Very Obssested Over Small Matters.
My Middle Sister Is Beautiful But Dose Not Agree + She Gets Very Down Over How She Looks.

All That Has Happend In My Life I Have Turned To Self Harming.
Doing This Makes Me Feel Safer, Stable + Very Relaxed In My Soul.

Kayleigh..

I Feel That Natasha Has Had A Worse Life Then Me +I Feel So Sad For Her Most Of The Time. Yet, When I Was A Child I Had No Friends And The Only Person Really Trusted Was My Granny. I Told Her Every Thing And She Would Listen And Help Me Afterwards. When My Granny Died After Having A Heart Attack I Felt All Alone And Like I Had No One To Talk To.
It Took Me A Very Long Time To Get Over Her Death..This Meaning A Few Years. Because Of This I Didnt Talk To Many Of The Other Children In My School Because I Felt Like No One Cared. When I Started To Make A Few Friends I Started To Become A More Happy Child, Until I Found The Horrible Bunch Of Children. They Would Think Of The Meanest Things To Say To Bring Me Down. The Few People I Thought Were My Friends Then Changed And Used Things I Told Them Agenst Me..Even Things About My Granny.

I Learnt How To Deal With All The Immature Lil Gits And Move On, But I Guess Some People Never Change As I Still Got Bullied Alot And In The End I Started To Self Harm But Not As Bad As It Has Turned Out.

I Have Recently Found Out A Auntie Of Mine Has Cancer And Its One Of The Worst Things In The World. She Hardly Knows Me + I Hardly Know Her But Thats Not The Point. If She Dies Then Thats One More Death To Add To A Long List Of Family Members That Have Died And Some How I Dont Think Im Gonna Be Able To Handle It.

Natasha + Kay..
We Have Both Had Very Bad Experiences That Have Led Us To Self Harming. We Both Feel That Life + Love Are A Form Of Death!
Love Is A Word That Is Miss-used Because Love Never Last But It Never Ends Like Life + Death.
If You Want To Share Experiences Or Critisize Our Views Please Do So As We Are Very Keen To Homologate (Accept) What Ever You May Think.x

Natasha + Kay were unique, two friends that chose to write to me together and seperately. I havnt heard from them since April, but I choose to believe that is because they are doing fine.... I will try to include all their past posts ....abz