Resilience & Strength

I read alot of blogs, papers, publications and its easy to be overwhelmed by others story's & traumas. I have been trying to think of positives of my own situation, it would be easy for me to slip back into the black spiral of negativity. I think, with some time up, I can look back at the character traits I have and see positives. Strength has always been my mantra but the one I want to focus on is
Dictionary:
resilience (rĭ-zĭl'yəns)
n.
The ability to recover quickly from illness, change, or misfortune; buoyancy.
The property of a material that enables it to resume its original shape or position after being bent, stretched, or compressed; elasticity.

Now in 1990, they coined the phrase

Psychological resilience as a term used in psychology to describe the capacity of people to cope with stress and catastrophe. It is also used to indicate a characteristic of resistance to future negative events. This psychological meaning of resilience is often contrasted with "risk factors".

This may seem like the last attribute one would have with my background, I'm hardly superwoman but having lived it, lived through it, and grown stronger I think I'm like cracked china, each little repair making me stronger and able to face what lies ahead. Each new strategy I've learnt is like superglue holding that tea cup together, till I'm stronger than the original would ever have been. I'm not sure if I'm making sense, but without my life history I would not have the insight into myself, have the resilience & strength I now do. It makes sense to me ... :)

I guess that what I'm trying to say, is while you are caught in the spiral, secrecy, shame, guilt or one of the many negative feelings, thoughts or words. Lets face it, it feels like shit! In there though you have an untold, often unrecognised resilience. To cope by cutting, SHing takes an inner strength, if you can tune into that energy and recognise it, you have a resilience of your own that hopefully will shine.